TESTI - I WAS ON MY KNEES

DREAM AND REALITY

Only seventeen
time froze in silence
White walls and weary eyes
The world was waiting
for my breath again
a wire to my heart
a month of pain

Then sleep reached out
and held my hand
carried me far away

Through dreams I fell
without resistance
the dark became my guide that day
In the fading pulse
of a distant dream
I saw the lights
of another world

Between a dream and reality
I walked along the line of time
Where life was fading into peace
undefined yet so divine
Two spirits whispered
It’s not your time

Their voices carried through the rain
The wind was calling out my name
and pulled me back again
A club a scream
a fight of shadows
Young hearts lost in the night

A road of mist
of endless sorrow
led me to the edge of light

A blooming arch
at the end of silence
a sign I couldn’t read at all
Two faceless souls
yet I could feel
my blood my heart
their gentle call
Why are you here
they asked in thunder
I just found myself
and I feel fine
But their voices rose
and split the sky
They’re calling you
go back to them

Between a dream and reality
they closed my wings of pain and doubt
Pushed me down through tears and silence
to a world I can’t live without
A mark beyond
the flesh and pain
a light that never fades away

I still carry
that blooming gate
and the secret
to live again

Between a dream and reality
now I know why I breathe
Not everything that dies is gone
some hearts remain beneath the sea

I’ve seen infinity
it whispered back to me
Infinity lives in me

A DIFFERENT CHALLENGE

I’ve seen friends
fall into silence
smiling faces fading
in the wind
The road forged me
like iron and fire
every wound is a mark
I carry with me

Every day
a different challenge
between the lights
and my storm
I ran through
luxury and perdition
seeking peace
among rivals and competition

Long nights
my heart always armed
a bitter toast to the
broken past
I saw glory and illusions burn
but from the ashes
I learned to fly

Every day
a different challenge
between the lights
and my storm
I ran through
luxury and perdition
seeking peace
among rivals and competition

And if fate bent me
a hundred times
I raised my face
I challenged the shadows
For every tear spilled
on my skin
I found strength
in the cruelest nights

Every day a different challenge
between the lights and my storm
Luxury emptiness contradiction
forged me like a revolution

IT’A NOT YOUR FAULT

You’ve been carrying too much weight
Looking for answers that were never yours
You’ve been carrying it far too long
Trying to heal what was already gone
Nameless answers Nameless answers

You gave more than anyone could ask
Still counting every bruise
But not every ending belongs to you

It’s not your fault
Don’t carry that burden anymore
It’s not your fault
Don’t carry that burden anymore
It’s not your fault

You don’t have to face this alone
face this alone
When everything feels colder
When everything feels too much to hold
I’ll be right here by your side

You’ve been through days without a voice
You’ve been through days without relief without relief
But there are hands that won’t walk away
There are footsteps choosing to stay

If the world should change its face
And nothing feels the same again
You won’t have to search for me in the crowd
You won’t have to search too far away
You’ll always know where to find me

It’s not your fault
Don’t carry that burden anymore
It’s not your fault
Don’t carry that burden anymore
It’s not your fault

You don’t have to face this alone
face this alone
When you look back one final time
When you choose to move ahead

I’ll be right here by your side
There will be better days
Even if you can’t believe it now
Until that moment comes
Let me be the one who believes for you

I LIVE THE DAY

I’m smiling
biting down on a curse
I talk low to those who ask
but I scream loud at assholes
I take careful steps
inside, running in no damn direction
Masks of peace
my head’s about to blow
no mercy

I walk alone
don’t trust the shit around me
Inside there’s only rage
Nobody knows who I really am
I stay and watch

I live the day
Got nothing to lose
I live my life
And I don’t give a fuck
I do whatever the fuck I want
This is me

They call themselves friends
but they’re fake
screwing you at the first chance
I learned this
this is what the streets teach
Nobody helps you if you fall
everyone just watches
Whoever betrays
they laugh
No mercy
No regrets

I walk alone
don’t trust the shit around me
Inside there’s only rage
Nobody knows who I really am
I stay and watch

I live the day
Got nothing to lose
I live my life
And I don’t give a fuck
I do whatever the fuck I want
This is me

The day will come
when I’ll lower my armor
But not today
Not tomorrow
Maybe it’ll never come

I live the day
Got nothing to lose
I live my life
And I don’t give a fuck
I do whatever the fuck I want
This is me

Love
I chose not to

I GAVE MY HEART

Love slips away like sand through my hands
A promise is a promise
When loyalty is gone
Betrayal arrives and when it arrives it burns
It burns the person standing by your side

I gave you everything you took everything without asking
I gave you everything you took everything
You were only laughing
I gave you everything you took everything
While I was falling away

Your touch used me
Your touch used me
It enchanted me
Used like a game always a game

I gave you trust told you my truths
In return I asked for the same thing
You chose to destroy it
You played with me
You played with feelings
Leaving scars leaving empty spaces
You don’t hurt a person this deeply
You don’t strike a person this hard

Your promises my promises
Memories moments emotions
Thrown away
Carried by the wind

I gave you everything you took everything without asking
I gave you everything you took everything
You were only laughing
I gave you everything you took everything
While I was falling away

Your touch used me like a game
Your touch used me

It enchanted me
Used like a game always a game
A heart is not a place where someone can inflict pain

I WAS ON MY KNEES

I paint the world in white
Year after year
Paying the price
Is always me
A prisoner here
A prisoner everywhere
Among cold rooms
And nameless silence
Cold as a mountain winter
Endless nights
Days far too long
As cold as the people around me

I was on my knees that day
You left me on my knees
I’m still on my knees today
An old clock has stopped
The way we stopped
The way we stopped

Inside or outside
It doesn’t matter now
You could have stayed
Your name is still here
Upon the window
Written on the glass
Inside or outside
It doesn’t matter now
You could have stayed

Concrete is as hard as you
These streets are dangerous
Just like you were
Today everything has changed
The past has settled all its debts
Set aside
You wanted this

I let go and make room for myself
No one can decide for me
I let go and make room
For my peace of mind
Never on my knees again
Never on my knees again

I was on my knees that day
You left me on my knees
I’m still on my knees today
An old clock has stopped
The way we stopped
The way we stopped

Inside or outside
It doesn’t matter now
You could have stayed
Your name is still here
Upon the window
Written on the glass
Inside or outside
It doesn’t matter now
You could have stayed

If you had really wanted to
If you had really stayed
I wouldn’t be here today

I WILL PASS

The house is silent lights asleep
But I’m awake between heart and real
I hold the pillow in my hands
Chasing a rhythm that can save me
Breathe it’s only passing through
A wave a shadow in my mind

My heart is trembling wants to run
I listen while it beats again
It will pass like rain on skin
Like dawn after endless night
I breathe and rise again
In the silence of this moment
I’m not alone
I’m never the only one
I know it will pass
Exhale

I think of faces that I love
They make me laugh they make me strong
The work that drains still fuels my fire
My family brings me back to breath

My heart is trembling wants to run
I listen while it beats again
It will pass like storms that fade
Like light returning through my veins
I breathe and smile again
Even through the fear
We’re not alone
We’re never alone

Tonight it fades away
It will pass like storms that fade
Like light returning through my veins
I breathe and smile again
We’re never alone

The night is quiet
I close my eyes
And start again

THE OCEAN ROARS

The ocean roars in the darkest night
a hurricane tears through my silent light
I throw a bottle in the broken tide
with dreams inside I’ve never tried

Every storm whispers your name
an echo wakes me with the pain
I search your eyes in shadows deep
but you’re just thoughts that never sleep

You’re in my dreams but not my life
a shoreline run that stays alive
You’re just a mirage in the wind
yet truer than all else within

The message flies inside my hand
through starless skies and stormy land
Each letter burns with fierce desire
for you who sets my soul on fire

Every storm whispers your name
an echo wakes me with the pain
I search your eyes in shadows deep
but you’re just thoughts that never sleep

You’re in my dreams but not my life
a shoreline run that stays alive
You’re just a mirage in the wind
yet truer than all else within

Maybe one day the sea will bring
you to the shore where echoes sing
Through footprints washed by salty rain
I’ll find you where the truth remains

You’re in my dreams but not my life
a shoreline run that stays alive
You’re just a mirage in the wind
yet truer than all else within

EVERYTHING’S NOT THE SAME

What’s happening to me
Everything was fine
Then one day my world
falls down

My peaceful days
The smile of every morning
This life light and carefree
It’s gone

I never thought a single word
Could break what was solid
And now I’m here
Searching for meaning
In the shadows of who
you were

I try to fight back
While everything stops
Yes
My mind just freezes
Everything fades

A cursed message
A cursed moment
And everything’s not the same
as before

Silence
I start reflecting
Where did I go wrong
I look at myself
In the mirror
Tears on my face with no answers

I read it again
And read it once more
I think and I reflect
On that
cursed message
A cursed memory
A cursed moment
And everything’s not the same
as before

Time
Heals the wounds
Time
Will make me smile
Again
Time
Will be my medicine

A cursed memory
A cursed moment
And everything’s not the same
as before

Everything comes back
It’s a wheel
That keeps turning
For everyone
And even for me

I’M STANDING HERE (LIVE)

Ships are leaving the harbor
one after another
the waves keep crashing on the pier
but I’m standing still right here

My hands deep in my pockets
while I’m watching the sea
I try to leave it all behind
but it keeps coming back to me

I’m standing here before the sea
without looking back
I’m alone with myself
and I don’t need a thing
I don’t need anything
just the sound of the waves
this pier I’m looking at
will stay before my eyes

The cry of the seagulls
covers the noise inside
every moment passes slowly
like a ship on the horizon

My hands deep in my pockets
while I’m watching the sea
I try to leave it all behind
but it keeps coming back to me

I’m standing here before the sea
companion of the evening
I’m alone with myself
while the wind changes direction
I don’t need anything
just the sea before me
this pier I’m looking at
will remain before my eyes

A ship is leaving the harbor
fading into the distance
I follow it with my eyes
until there’s nothing left

My hands deep in my pockets
while I’m watching the sea
I try to leave it all behind
but it keeps coming back to me

TESTI – I WAS ON MY KNEES

TESTI - I WAS ON MY KNEES

IT WILL PASS

TESTO SCRITTO DA - LAVARINI ETHEL