TESTI - I PUT MY HEART
VOL. II
YOU CHOSE
You slammed the door
Without looking back
Leaving the noise
Of your silence behind
No reason
Not a single word
Just the void
Spreading inside of me
I wonder if you ever paused
To feel the weight
Of what you didn’t say
You chose to disappear
You chose your friends
You chose to erase me
Without knowing the real reason
Shame on you
I don’t deserve this
I see you laughing
Like it means nothing
While I’m stuck here alone
Like a damn fool
You wiped everything away
In a moment
As if what we had
Never existed
You chose to disappear
You chose your friends
You chose to erase me
Without knowing the real reason
Shame on you
I don’t deserve this
Maybe the truth
Was never yours to give
Maybe you were just afraid
To stay
But silence hits harder
Than any wound
And it echoes
Inside me still
You chose to disappear
You chose your friends
You chose to erase me
Without knowing the real reason
Shame on you
I don’t deserve this
I can’t accept all of this
All of this just hurts
NO TURNING BACK
Yesterday we were just kids
Problems bigger than us
We fell without thinking
We got back up on our own
We had no strategies
Only instinct and anger
Life hit us hard
But it never stopped us
No fear of failing
No plan b
If there was a wall in front of us
We faced it head on
Theres no turning back
All we ever wanted
Was to stay on our feet
We live in the present
Without making promises
Were still here
Today the rules have changed
Every choice has a price
Problems dont run away
You face them or they crush you
Fewer useless words
More concrete actions
Weve lost something
But not our direction
Theres no turning back
All we ever wanted
Was to stay on our feet
We live in the present
Without making promises
Were still here
Tomorrow will be different
Not easier
Well use experience
Not fear
Well move forward
For who we are
Without waiting
For someone else to decide
Theres no turning back
All we ever wanted
Was to stay on our feet
Well live the future
The way weve learned
Were still here
Yesterday shaped us
Today puts us to the test
Tomorrow
Depends on us
BITTER
Like life when it gives no discounts
And leaves on your skin
The weight of the good and the bad of every day
Bitter
Like love when you step back into the game
When you still believe
And every time it ends up hurting you
When it comes
You can’t avoid it
You can’t stop it
You can’t limit it
You accept it
And it will go away
On its own
It’s waking up and starting again
Without knowing if it’s worth it
It’s gritting your teeth and not giving up
While the darkness slowly consumes you
It’s giving without measure
For fear of not being enough
It’s staying even when you know
Something inside is breaking
And you learn to live with
What never really changes
To call it strength
What is hurting you
When it comes
You can’t avoid it
You can’t stop it
You can’t limit it
You accept it
And it will go away
On its own
Not just pain
But a memory that won’t fade
The sign that you were true
Even when it wasn’t worth it
Still feeling something
In spite of everything
Staying human
When you lose everything
When it comes
You can’t avoid it
You can’t stop it
You can’t limit it
You accept it
And it will go away
On its own
Bitter
A simple word
That says too much
TAKE ME RIGHT
Don’t talk to me
Don’t explain a thing
I see you You see me
That’s it
I’m not looking for love
I’m looking for passion
Body on body
No discussion
You’re so close
Way too close
And I want you like that
Don’t play the saint
Don’t make me wait
no need
You know exactly what I want
so decide
If you want me move
If you don’t walk away
I don’t have time to waste
You get it right
Take me Right now
Hard No brakes
Make me lose control
Make my heartbeat race
Hold me Push me
Don’t stop
Don’t slow down
Don’t talk
This is all I want
This is all you want
No promises
Just flesh
Don’t look at me like I’m fragile
I’m not fragile
I’m hunger
You touch me I change my face
You hold me it’s never enough
You take me and I follow you
No questions
No tomorrow
No later
Here it’s all right now
All right now
Take me Right now
Hard No brakes
Make me lose control
Make my heartbeat race
Hold me Push me
Don’t stop
Don’t slow down
Don’t talk
This is all I want
This is all you want
No promises
Just sex
Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me what we are
We are nothing
We are instinct
You’re inside my head
But not with words
Your body
Your scent
Take me Right now
Hard No brakes
Make me lose control
Make my heartbeat race
Hold me Push me
Don’t stop
Don’t slow down
Don’t talk
This is all I want
This is all you want
No promises
Just sex
Take me Right now
Hard No brakes
Make me lose control
Make my heartbeat race
Hold me Push me
Don’t stop
Don’t slow down
Don’t talk
Don’t leave me space
Don’t give me air
Shut it all down
until I break
Take me Right now
Hard
I PUT MY HEART
Shit I saw him in the crowd
Heart pumping fast
Already spinning my head
Every day I try to stay close
Follow him everywhere
Laugh at all his bullshit
He stays cold
Nothing happens
I push myself
Always on my grind
He stays frozen
Doesn’t move
I do everything for him
Feels useless
And me
I’m here
Waiting for a cuddle
I put my heart in it
You stay cold
Give nothing
I try to spark the fire
But you stay distant
And me
I’m hurting
Kiss me touch me
I want your hands on me
Your lips on my neck
Make me shiver move
Don’t stand still make me fly
I want you damn it
Don’t you get it
I put my heart in it
You stay cold
Give nothing
I try to spark the fire
But you stay distant
And me
I’m hurting
Everything I do
Is fucking useless
You don’t move
Even if I push you
And me
I’m destroying myself
For nothing
I put my heart in it
You stay cold
Give nothing
I try to spark the fire
But you stay distant
And me
I’m hurting
We stay as we stay
It’s better
Far apart
UNTIL TODAY
I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you’re doing
Maybe you’re watching us
Maybe you’re smiling too
Maybe you’re just there
And nothing more
In silence
Just the way you are
Today is a beautiful day
Full intense
Full of laughter
I’m starting to feel better
I can feel it
Inside of me
The wind carries everything away
The water washes what has been
Until today
The sun warms
It lights up
Who I am
I’m more at peace now
My life feels lighter
Without those weights
That took my breath away
I let go of
What was choking me
And if you look at me now
I know you’re proud
Lost in distant plans
Little by little I see them
Turn into tomorrow
My choices my decisions
I should have done it sooner
The wind carries everything away
The water washes what has been
Until today
The sun warms
It lights up
Who I am
I’m in the car
I’m on my way home
It’s late
But it’s okay like this
What is missing
Is not absence
It’s a part
That remains
I can see my life
Taking shape
Like a road
That turns clean again
BOUND BY BLOOD
Grew up together
I believed in you
But you’re just like all the rest
And you want to drag me down
I won’t follow you into your shit
I won’t walk with you
I’m not your shield
Nor your dirty alibi
Bound by blood
Now you spit on me
All your bullshit
And you try to make it mine
All your bullshit done in secret
I get caught up with no fault of mine
And I watch as everything falls apart
In the end you’re the one who falls
I trusted you
But every move of yours was a trap
You fucked yourself up in your own mess
I stay standing this is the end
I won’t follow you into your shit
I won’t walk with you
I’m not your shield
Nor your dirty alibi
Bound by blood
Now you spit on me
All your bullshit
And you try to make it mine
You had it all
You burned it all
I won’t be the one
To clean up your disaster
Bound by blood
Now you spit on me
All your bullshit
I won’t walk with you goodbye
THIS IS THE INFINITE
It starts with a kiss and it feels normal
But I know how I am I burn if you look at me
You’ve got the eyes of someone who won’t promise
I get lost and it takes almost nothing
I feel the taste I feel the moment
Like time is holding its breath
And deep down the music is already there
A delicate sound rising slow
Because it knows before I do
That what burns leaves ashes
I trust it and I don’t know why
A sentence that never really ends
I open up I end up hurting
You smile and walk away
This is the infinite
It’s not a melody it’s my sentence
It’s your touch on my skin
And then the emptiness comes and shuts me down
This is the infinite
It’s the music that knows me
It plays inside me it leaves on me
What I never wanted
Love falls it makes no sound
No scene but it leaves a taste
That bitter taste that stays in my mouth
Like it’s all so right and instead it’s only smoke
I talk to you and you look away
I walk away and you don’t see me
The music plays it changes face
From a caress it turns into a knife
And I feel small exposed
Like someone who truly believes
And the night falls on me
Like a stage with no one there
This is the infinite
It’s not a melody it’s my sentence
It’s your touch on my skin
And then the emptiness comes and shuts me down
This is the infinite
It’s the music that knows me
It plays inside me it leaves on me
What I never wanted
Hate grows
My nerves snap I become someone else
I don’t ask permission
I don’t say sorry
I don’t ask for shit
I explode
And cruelty comes
Like a blade like your touch
The music stays right there in front of me
It doesn’t save me it kills me slowly
This is the infinite
It’s not a melody it’s my sentence
It’s your touch on my skin
And then the emptiness comes and shuts me down
This is the infinite
It’s the music that knows me
It plays inside me it leaves on me
What I never wanted
RUN AND RUN
Sunsets move like the hands of a clock
and the years go by
What have we become
and what have we done
Nothing
We run and we run
but what the fuck are you running for
Life is our journey
you’ve got to live it with no rush
You tell me tomorrow we’ve got things to do
you tell me future plans
But what about today
what the fuck are we doing now
Always pushed to later
always further ahead
We skip the present
like it doesn’t mean a thing
Stop for a second
nothing breaks
The world doesn’t fall apart
if you stay here present
You don’t have to run
to feel alive
If you can’t stand still
you don’t even know where you’re going
We run and we run
but what the fuck are you running for
Life is our journey
you’ve got to live it with no rush
We run and we run
never stopping once
and meanwhile the present
just slips right past us
We run and we run
We run and we run
The hands keep turning
this time we stay right here
THEN MAYBE THE OTHERS
There are those who close doors afraid to give
Those who clench their hands just to hold on
Words are used like shiny shields
Truth bent not to lose a thing
We are islands dressed as bridges
Helpless in front of the mirror
We choose ourselves to survive
And we call it instinct we call it a right
Me first then maybe the others
That’s how it goes that’s how it works
It’s not hate it’s not evil
It’s just how we survive
It’s not cruelty
It’s convenience
We choose ourselves
And that’s it
Ego grows in the little things
In the not now in the not my turn
In the hands we let fall down
When helping hurts too much
It’s not cruelty
But the price is always paid by others
We are alone by choice not by fate
Helpless in front of the mirror
We choose ourselves not to drown
And we call it self love
Me first then maybe the others
That’s how it goes that’s how it works
It’s not hate it’s not evil
It’s just how we survive
It’s not cruelty
It’s convenience
We choose ourselves
And that’s it
Me first then maybe the others
That’s how it goes that’s how it works
It’s not hate it’s not evil
It’s just how we survive
It’s not cruelty
It’s convenience
We choose ourselves
And that’s it
YOU FIND HIM WITHIN YOU
A father and a son who didn’t always have a father
The man you loved and admired as a child
He guides your life with honest joy
And hides the pain of your hard times
He smiles in silence when you win your fight
Even from far away his presence stays alive
That serious look that brings you back in time
That gentle smile that clears your mind
You miss a father even when you’re a parent
Because we stay children deep in our heart
You find him within you in your eyes
in your hands
In your deepest soul where he still stands
He is the light that never fears the dark
The strength that drives you past every mark
That warm embrace that keeps you safe inside
When the world feels heavy he is by your side
A father is a light that never fades away
He pushes you forward to a brighter day
He smiles in silence when you win your fight
Even from far away his presence stays alive
You find him within you in your eyes
in your hands
In your deepest soul where he still stands
He is the light that never fears the dark
The strength that drives you past every mark
When you fall down he lifts you up again
He lives in your heart until the very end
You find him within you in your eyes
in your hands
In your deepest soul where he still stands
OPEN YOUR EYES
This life is waging war on me
But it shaped the strength I need
The fire inside won’t let me bleed
It turned me to a warrior indeed
You don’t get to pick the fight
Sometimes it comes like lightning bright
Open your eyes and you will see
Beyond the fear there’s destiny
The beauty life can set you free
Just take the chance and believe
Open your eyes believe
Open your eyes be free
The storms may rage and winds may cry
But I won’t bow I’ll touch the sky
The scars I wear are medals high
They tell the tale of how I fly
Open your eyes and you will see
Beyond the fear there’s destiny
The beauty life can set you free
Just take the chance and believe
Through the darkness I rise again
Turning loss into my flame
Every shadow fades away
When I choose to stay
Open your eyes and you will see
Beyond the fear there’s destiny
The beauty life can set you free
Just take the chance and believe
Open your eyes believe
Open your eyes be free
Open your eyes believe
Be Free
